I Don't Know

I don't know what to think, but please don't tell me what to do
I don't know what to do, so I sit here talking to you
I'm just dead, I wanna be dead...
I don't know what I'm doing right now, just sitting in front of a monitor
I don't think I'll ever gonna be ok
I'm starting to think I'm crazy...
Why should I live
Why should I die
I don't really know what I'm supposed to do
I never really feel happy, why should this happen to me
That isn't fair...
I'm only listening to music right now,l witing, and thinking
This life really make me wanna die
I don't wanna live, but I don't wanna die
Thats's a problem, a big one
I don't wanna cry, but I never feel happy
I don't wanna be a stupid human, who tryes to be a better man
I don't feel sad right now, I just don't feel anithing
Often I feel nothing, and that really hurts
Why can't I feel happy, even if I'm supposed to do
I'm just a dead man, soon or later I'll dye
Noone can stop me from doing that
I don't care about your stupid words
I don't care about your stupid wolrd
I don't want to be here, on this chair, in front of a stupid monitor, writing and writing
I don't want to tell peaple what I think
This whould pobably kill them
I hate most of the peaple I see
Why am I still here writing?
I just don't want to do it
But at the same time I wanna write anything, anything about me, about my story, I want to tell you why I'm here, why I'm STILL here, who saved me, who tryes to help me
But I'm not gonna do it
This would kill me
I... no, I don't know, I don't know anything, I am nothing, I don't want to be anything
That's pulling me of
Goodbye...
_VinSi.