Dear dad

Dear dad,

I know you have the best intentions

i know you want to help

i know you want me to smile, to be happy.

But you don't know what it's like.

Waking up every day, wishing you hadn't

waking up every day, looking out the window 

and wishing for an asteroid to come crasing through your room and just

killing you.

I dont want your good advice and reasons why i'm alright. 

I dont want this anymore. 

I dont wanna wake up,

i dont wanna go to school

i dont wanna love

i dont wanna hate

i dont wanna feel.

You're sitting there, looking at me, your precious little girl

i was happy and cheerful, but now i'm older and the world is turning cold.

 I told you i was down, but you let it slip by.

I'm sorry daddy, i've only ever wanted to make you proud. 

I'm no longer that precious little girl.

I'm sorry dad but this world is just not my place.

I've made your life worse, i know i have. 

In a year you'll forget i'm gone.

In a year i will only be a memory.

You were the best friend i've ever had. I'm sorry i have to make you so sad.

I love you.

goodbye.

lem