My happiness, BlueStar

 Hello friends,

It's me again, but this time I come bearing a happy post. Granted, I'm not happy myself, but this person I will talk about today is my happiness.

This is a letter to you, my happiness.

You found me in the dark and you showed me the light. I can't ever begin thank you enough. What you did is something I didn't even believe as being possible. You saved me.

All those messages, all those call, all that patience you showed me, the laughs, the cries, that's all I've ever wanted in life. Someone real, someone who understands me, someone who i can call mine, someone like you.

When we met we were both in bad shape, I was ready to just throw it all away, intoxicated by my own mind; you were leading a lonely life, never attached, always floating amongst friends and people. I like to believe we saved each other. In our own ways, we gave each other a taste of what a happy life can be.

There are some things I've never told you, and I would like to take this chance to tell you.

When you look at me with love in your eyes it makes me feel seen, as if I'm no longer a no one, it makes me feel like i matter. However at the same time it makes me feel vulnerable, I'm so used to living behind tall and thick walls, and when you look at me it's lik eyou see straight through them and it kind of scared me a little bit, but it's overall a good thing.

You make me incredibly proud every single day, the battles you face day by day would kill any other man who had to fight them, however you manage to wake up and deal with it over ahd over again. It's quite impressive.

That's all my lemon sized brain managed to squeeze out. I'm tired now.

I love you. 

Goodbye friends, I will be back next week maybe.

lem