sfogo

these days i've been struggling with my thoughts, i'm always overthinking, lying to the ones that i love because i don't want them to 'pity' me, i can't sleep at night, i always feel like there's a void inside of me, so lonely and dark, but at the same time my thoughts race like crazy, i just can't do it anymore, everything feels like its crumbling. I lost a lot of people that i used to precious and sometimes i still think of them, i think of how i was selfish and wrong, everyone around me seems happy, they are coping, but i'm just here floating around barely breathing. Everyone has a purpose in life and i'm the only one who dosen't have it, i'm going shit at school, i am not the perfect daughter and i always feel like a dissapointment to my family, i just wantto end all of this, i can't do it anymore, i hate myself, i'm ugllu and literally so lonely idk i'm afraid that the only people that stayed with me until this day will just go away like everyone, because i feel like i don't deserve love, i just want everything to finish, i'm tired of being the way i am.